State of Nothingness

Man.... it's kinda hard to keep your head lifted, when you're not where you want to be. It's hard to be happy just to be alive, when deep down inside, you just want to die. They say be happy for what you have, I have little to nothing, all I wanted to do, was to make it so I can offer something better to those after me, my future kids and whatnot. In the end, I have nothing for myself, but a computer screen and these four walls. I finally decided to stand, and I already feel myself ready to sit down, because I don't know where to go. Trying to focus, but I can feel every bit of it slipping into that pit.... Stay.... focused.... Don't forget -Arc Christelle